I'm a little divided ,

, you see. I'm lucky enough to live two lives. One is the every-day reality that most people find me in and the other one is through these words. I dare say, almost all the people with whom i interact daily cannot see so deep as to even recognise me in these short virtual confessions. Do you have that? The feeling that this capitalistic society makes you adopt a practical, pragmatic attitude as to "fitt in", but in fact, it actually drowns your spirit in shallowness?

I get sad, sometimes, you know. It's because i know, i feel with all my being that i could do greater things in my life than choose the expected expectations : the job, the familly, the friends, the house, everything as " it should be". I wish i had the courage to devote my life to a purpose so pure that in no matter what form it shall be materialised, it will live forever. And people will apreciate me because i left something valuable behind.

~I woke one morning and I felt such a sence of posibility that I thought " this is the begining of happiness", but what i wasn't aware of at that time is that That was happiness. Right there. That moment~ .

I sence that i am letting my spirit die in full awareness of my situation. I seize to find something that speaks to my heart, a person who can understand this by looking into my eyes and seing more than their own desires of what i could be. I wish somebody could understand how much i feel the need for emotional depth without the chains of mass uniformisation.

Hello? Anynone?